December 2009
IWYKHIF...
I hate how I always made excuses for you, about you, to myself. I knew straight up you were bad for me. I knew you would never be “good for me” but I didn’t care. I wanted you and I got you… and now I wish I hadn’t been so quick to touch. I bit off more than I could chew and now I’m spitting it all out, because truth is, I don’t want anything to do with...
“There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you...”
– Madonna (via kari-shma)
Application essays suck.
Essay B done! GO ME! I still have to finish Essay A, which is the bigger essay. I’m determined to finish this thing tonight… right now. I need to finish. Then I will work on the other application. Yeh.
I can feel my heart breaking... again.
You're a mess with the worst intentions, and I...
I’m a wreck. I’m a mess. I don’t know how to handle what’s going on. Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up as somebody else. Sometimes I wish life wasn’t so darn frustrating and stressful. Sometimes, I wish too much.
His laugh is one of the most amazing sounds I've...
I couldn’t stop thinking last night about how he’d laugh at my corny jokes and how his laugh always brightened my day. I want to hear his laugh again…
Voice recordings.
M: I'm gonna call him up and be like "talk to me."
M: Then I'll make him laugh and record his laugh.
M: Aw, shit. I need to get a phone first.
P: You should text him.
M: I can't text.
That's the thing though; I'm not waiting forever.
(via fadedsilhouettes)
Difference between you and I is that I would. I’m not sure if that’s the smartest or best idea. It will lead me to nothing but a heartbreak. Oh, I will never learn.
IWYKHIF...
I’m so fucking close to confessing everything to you, but something holds me back. I’m scared beyond anything in the world that you won’t care. That will truly crush me. I know it. Maybe that’s why I’ve been biting my tongue for so long. I’d rather keep pretending that you do care than know that you don’t. I’m hoping a part of you will care though....
Kris Allen | Live Like We’re Dying
Think like this:
I’m going to live my life, my way. No one is going to stand in my way. I am going to start now. I’ve been far too miserable for far too long. I want to be happy now.
Why do I keep torturing myself?
Time machines don’t exist, and as much as I’d like to go back in time and relive life, that’s not going to happen. I should accept defeat. I can’t help but think that she knew… I can’t help but wonder what was going on in his head when he was talking to her but hanging out with me. It hurts. My heart still aches. I really wish I could move on, but something...
There's a rattlesnake outside my house!
I just saw it and it looks pretty dang cool, aha.
“When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.”
– Jimi Hendrix
I am so determined right now.
I will finish the application right now, because I am determined to finish. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. YESSSSSSSSSS.
13535.) What if nobody ever falls in love with me?
(via blogsecret)
what if more than one person does? what if you fall in love with more than one person… at the same time?
Every Avenue | Think Of You Later
IWYKHIF...
So now that I’m on this risk-taking rampage, I feel that you should know…
I could have stayed quiet my entire life. I could have continued living my life without letting you know how I felt. But that’s not what I want at all. I want you to know that I am alive. I want you to be fully aware of my existence. I am not a nobody. I want to be a somebody. Just give me the chance. I am...
If you risk nothing, you risk everything.
Life is all about risks. I have nothing to lose. So I’m going to take the risk… because it feels right.
Everything hurts.
My stomach is a beast right now, I don’t even know why. There’s pizza and I want to eat, but I don’t want to. My head hurts now, head aches suck.
I wish someone would call me. I want to talk to someone. Maybe I’ll just go to sleep? Idk. Or I could work on the essays which I need to finish ASAP.
Urgh, I’m so lazy.
